Dear Zareen Most of the lives on this earth don’t seem to be in perfect circle, so did mine. No matter how much I tried, but I could never give it a perfect shape, instead it took the shape which we could never predict or which you could ever figure out.
I failed. I failed again and again.
Loss has been a part of my journey called life, with sadness deep down in my heart, I am still alive is because of the fact that though I failed, yet I know, at least I tried my best to make our life perfect, the shape which you wanted, I tried my best to search my true Love in this life. I tried with all the courage and audacity which I had, but yes I know my best was not best enough.
My loss has shown me what is “Precious” in this life, that what makes you feel happy from inside, it has also given me the glimpses of what is true Love, and how it changes your life and dreams, at least I today live with that wonderful experience (though it is painful).
I know my journey is still on, my travels and my trials have taught me a simple truth, that there is this one person in this world who is made for you, so perfect, your sheet-anchor, your support, your courage, your dream, your happiness, in a sense, your complete life. That one person, who makes your life on this earth a perfect circle, that one person, where all your search end.
Zareen, I know, you were my search, my “that perfect person made for me”, my soul-mate, I thought you were mine, but I lost you, perhaps I was naïve, I let you down or perhaps, I was not that perfect person for you.
Your love has made me believe and through this letter of mine, today, I let everyone in this world know, that, there does exists this wonderful Love, perfectly made for you, which has the power to heal your body, mind and soul and that each one of us, no matter at what stage of our life we are in, should take a journey in search for this true Love. Not everyone does succeed. And yes, it’s a painful journey though, but I am sure, that’s the only way we complete our journey called Life.
And if by this letter of mine, I could set forth even one single life, in search of true Love, then there will be this erasing of all my guilt, all my pains and all my failures. Then perhaps I may not call my self a failure, then perhaps, I may not say, that, Loss has been a part of my journey called Life….
With all my love,
Manav
P.S. And once again, I am Sorry I did not try harder to find out those perfect words to tell you what I was feeling when you were so close to me and wanted to hear from me, I am Sorry, I did not try harder to apologize to you, I was too proud....
