(This painting, oil on canvas, "Potrait" was done by me in 2003, during my stay in Jakarta, Indonesia. The painting beautifully depicts the spectrum of energy, and i thought this would be very apt for my poem below)What For? For Whom...
I can see the twilight up in the sky.
Seems yet another day has begun.
And yet another night has gone,
With no sleep in my eye.
Everyday, I start with a new ray of hope.
Hope to see a new horizon, a canvas of my dreams;
I subsist everyday, while I see me in despair each moment.
But everyday is same and the nights too are indifferent.
My mind overworked, my body drained.
I recline and laze, wide awake,
But what for? I am uncertain.
For whom? I am unsure.
I realize, I need to break free from the life I endure.
I am aware, I am being pushed along with the tide.
But unable to break free from the ongoing drift.
Helpless, I am unable to change.
This is not me, I realize, this is not my soul.
I need to change, before time takes the toll.
I need to be freed from the shackles of ordinary,
And become that person I have always longed for.
Express myself in every way, touch life in a positive way.
Conquer my dreams and realize the possibility.
Leave my mark on humanity,
Before I fade away in the oceans of time.
Then perhaps, I may fall asleep.
And then yes, I can put my mind to rest.
With my soul intact and my body reclaimed,
I would be certain;
For what I lived and for whom I was needed.
